Poem inspired by the vibes today and Get You The Moon by Kina https://www.shazam.com/track/410545589/get-you-the-moon

You are, you are –

To the lonely child crying

feeling like you don’t belong

The girl who believes she’s ugly

the boy unable to profess his love

The old man always waiting for visitors

the animal pacing in a cage, primal starvation

You are my reasons for pressing on –

I fight for you, most of all, I test myself for you

I want to be your voice when you’re silenced

I want to be the love that carries you through

However far or near; restless, relentless, inspired

You are, you are, you are, you are –

Thank you, thank you

Keep being you, despite the challenges and pain

I’m here for you – I’m a part of this life thing too

I don’t want to win if that means you have to lose

And also abit of this:

Idontwannabeyouanymore by Billie Eilish https://www.shazam.com/track/365500261/idontwannabeyouanymore

Sometimes optimal mastery means reflection on things that hurt you to the core.

Asking where you haven’t shown up fully and why.

Really why – not the why you want to tell yourself because it makes sense in your head.

The why only your heart knows.

The why that infects you to the core and scares you because it’s that authentic to your being.

The one you can’t put into words but feel with ever fibre of your beingness –

That why.

So yea – also: Harder by Oliver Riot https://www.shazam.com/track/341365921/harder

And feel it.

The complicated, breathless passion of my existance’s primal drive to persist and flourish –

To create.

To love.

To love what I create.

To have others love me and what I create.

To matter.

To make a difference.

Live a good life.

Become a stoic…

Keep learning and growing – forever…

And that’s alright with me –

So here’s one more my dears: Easily by Bruno Major https://www.shazam.com/track/336054964/easily

xoxo, cheers to trying my beloveds – even when it doesn’t come easily (and all that other bluesy essence of life) 😘

Ok, one more… I’m not sorry haha

Lovely by Billie Eilish & Khalid https://www.shazam.com/track/413168592/lovely

Unknown creator – was it you? Let me know! I love it!

Sluggish but steady, the beat is lazy and heavy

Makes my blood sway and my lips roll into my teeth

I’m cold but not really, simply alone in a large space

Not sure what the lyrics say, bit it doesn’t matter

It’s more about the sounds and the way this feels –

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Wrap myself in a blanket to brace against the empty

Feel the expansive gaping of my own voided natures

Grab another blanket but keep on shivering, shaking

Almost remember something I didn’t know I forgot

Clench my teeth against the phantom chills inside –

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It’s okay to be scared little one, it’s okay to be scared

I rock myself, like a sleeping infant – hold myself

Motion becoming a dance of my liberating madness

Feeling energy crawl up my spine – throughout me

The swirling abandon of synergy’s bold redesign –

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Gently into the night, yet all the more for my raging

I’m tracing the outlines of pleasure with my mind

Rides more wicked than the amusment of hearts

Plunging into the depths of humanity’s subversion

Trusting the in and out breaths to keep the time –

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Making plans to play, keep healing and let decay

Winding in and out of form, flow and function

Until my mind begins to drone again, like the heater

And I start to notice a tight tingling in my eyelids

Wondering how long ago the music stopped playing –

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