Examing a place at the center of my chest where it feels like I trapped swallowed air, just above a sharp tightness, and it’s all tingling.

Feels like fear.

Feels like anxiety over dissapointments I haven’t had yet.

I don’t want to think about the worst case scenario, is that why it’s so easy?

You might deserve the benefit of the doubt, or actually, the benefit of not doubting you for things that you haven’t even done.

But then * remember.

Similar twisting discomforts and distortions of disease.

Once upon a time I thought intuition was just fear, and so confidence dissapears.

Do I face the chance of being used and truth distorted again, do I dare believe that something beyond my past experience is possible?