So very strange, to type a random word into my Evernote app just to see what pops up. I chose the word “guess” and this was the oldest peice in my catalogue, Darlings:

Oct. 15, 2010
My Darling,
I don’t even know how to start… so many things are running through my head. I just wanted needed to let you know somehow – I love you. Look, I know you told me to run, and I am, but I have to be able to reach you. No matter where I go, or where they take you – I will find a way. I’ll be careful, I promise…
I won’t tell you where I’m going (you’re the boss ;), but I’ll tell you what – I’m gonna be missing your presence next to me on the warm sandy beaches of… ah… great big oceans 😉 but yes, I guess it’s time for me to go find that lil’ hut I’ve always talked about – or, I suppose with the resources you left me, maybe not so lil’ and not so hut. Good god – I miss you something terrible tho. I know, no matter what, things will be okay… I know we’ll figure it out. It’s just so damn hard when it feels like my heart is tearing itself desperately out of my chest, just longing to be near you.
Baby, I feel somewhat responsible for all this mess… I mean, I know you’ll just say that I’m being crazy, but really… I guess I just wonder if there was something I could have done to keep this from happening…
I’m definitely not to be worried about my love – I’m going into serious mastermind mode lol, I’ll be keeping myself busy that’s for sure! It’ll be great – I’m gonna be sure to have everything ready for your return to… well me 😉 where ever that might end up being.
OXO, Your Darling

Takes me back to an entirely different life, an entirely different Mayryanna.

Makes me laugh when I hear, “people can’t change!”

Guess I’m not people…