Hello all! I wanted to officially announce that I have ended my vow of silence early.
In all, it was a great experience and I learned a lot, however for the constraints and complications of trying to continue normal life, it was becoming far to complicated and difficult (for myself yes, but the real problem was my inability to control how it was affecting others).
Here’s some of what I learned through this experiment with communication:
#1 – a lot of what I do for my grandma as her caregiver is be her companion, listen to her stories and keep her company – which is much richer when I contribute as well.
#2 – Much of our verbal response is automatic, like bodily functions, and there’s not much time for thinking before normal reactions. I’ve highly enjoyed becoming aware of this in myself and will be further exploring the relationship between my triggers and reactions.
#3 – the line between language and noise is SUPER THIN! I could communicate so much more than I thought just by using sound and I will definitely be playing with this more too!
Those are just a few things I’ve gleaned, but there are so many more. I also still feel called to silence, but in a more controlled and supportive environment, and will be looking for opportunities to attend a silent retreat in the near future.
Thank you all for your patience during this time! I love and appreciate youuuu ❤