Originally written Feburary 15th, 2015. I was moving in with a friend, getting a divorce and feeling as though I had lost myself at the time. Yet, this poem feels as true now as ever – life isn’t always easy, but that doesn’t make it bad.
I couldn’t protect you
even from myself
I could never protect you
especially from myself
I’m not here to make life easy.
I’m here to bring you pain –
to make you feel, to make you bleed
to provide the gravity to which your pride leads
You don’t have to understand me.
That’s not the point. You hate me –
because I’m beautiful and not ashamed
Call me crazy? Are you playing a silly game child?
I am chaos unleashed, I am never ending testimony –
I am the air that you breathe
I am that very heart of yours that keeps beating despite your attempts to maim it and your forgetfulness to care for its most tender devotion
Hate me if you have to, curse me – I dare you
send all the energy my way!
I’m a transformative visionary creator
you’ll hate that you love
what you see until you
suddenly remember –
every known blessing be yours
that you might be forced to forge ahead into an even more fantastic future –