in my dreams

Original song written by Mayryanna, November 29, 2017:

I had a dream last night

You were here by my side
You held me close and warm
Looked deep into my eyes
You told me you’d rather die
Than ever leave my ecstacy
Oh I laughed as I listened
I dove straight into your bliss –


But, when I awoke today
startled by morning’s harsh light
You weren’t here with me
Hadn’t been, it was just a dream
So I’m trudging through the day
Struggling to stay awake
Oh I long to be sleeping
I’m missing your sweet embrace
I’ll dream of you tonight
Once again you’ll be by my side
I’ll hold you close and warm
I’ll look deep into your eyes
I’ll tell you I’d rather die

then wake up without you again


Oh if can’t hold you in my arms

I’ll forever hold you in my dreams
Music, Poetry, Thoughts

Poetry and music and music and poetry

Poem inspired by the vibes today and Get You The Moon by Kina

You are, you are –

To the lonely child crying

feeling like you don’t belong

The girl who believes she’s ugly

the boy unable to profess his love

The old man always waiting for visitors

the animal pacing in a cage, primal starvation

You are my reasons for pressing on –

I fight for you, most of all, I test myself for you

I want to be your voice when you’re silenced

I want to be the love that carries you through

However far or near; restless, relentless, inspired

You are, you are, you are, you are –

Thank you, thank you

Keep being you, despite the challenges and pain

I’m here for you – I’m a part of this life thing too

I don’t want to win if that means you have to lose

And also abit of this:

Idontwannabeyouanymore by Billie Eilish

Sometimes optimal mastery means reflection on things that hurt you to the core.

Asking where you haven’t shown up fully and why.

Really why – not the why you want to tell yourself because it makes sense in your head.

The why only your heart knows.

The why that infects you to the core and scares you because it’s that authentic to your being.

The one you can’t put into words but feel with ever fibre of your beingness –

That why.

So yea – also: Harder by Oliver Riot

And feel it.

The complicated, breathless passion of my existance’s primal drive to persist and flourish –

To create.

To love.

To love what I create.

To have others love me and what I create.

To matter.

To make a difference.

Live a good life.

Become a stoic…

Keep learning and growing – forever…

And that’s alright with me –

So here’s one more my dears: Easily by Bruno Major

xoxo, cheers to trying my beloveds – even when it doesn’t come easily (and all that other bluesy essence of life) 😘

Ok, one more… I’m not sorry haha

Lovely by Billie Eilish & Khalid

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