Category: spiritual

A glimpse into my life…

My left thigh is tingling and warm

from soft kitten purrs, as loud as they are gentle

He refused to “say cheese” though

The room is cold, here in the basement

as well as quiet, dark and spacious

I can remember when this entire space

was filled floor to ceiling with miscellaneous

I feel connected to it in remarkable ways

And that’s just the basement –

My current home is remarkable

Home

I feel home

Everything feels like home right now

What a difference a few years makes…

I used to be in a bad marriage

I used to be a chronic enabler

I used to recklessly abhor myself

Just years ago…

Don’t get me wrong, and if you read my blog you know

Things aren’t perfect…

They truly are better than perfect

This is why

My unalome/wanderlust mashup tattoo

That is to say, what it represents

They joy of the journey

Remembering to appreciate, even the bad

Even when life is chaos and you can’t breathe

If anything, that got me here

At least from that self-deprecating behavior of my past

But it does go deeper

To a time before I new how to be happy

And only grace got me through that

Om, beloved Divine, quest of my heart

Thank you, thank you, thank you my sweet, sweet loves – my beloveds – my sweet love, my beloved, my endlessly cherished One

In all the ways my devotion has blossomed

I have been endlessly blessed

And if I had not strayed into the depths of hopelessness

Would I have ever known the true heights of bliss

unknowns

temptation

mindless sensory stimulation

escaping from reality

too much

it always feels like too much

I overdose to forget

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wake me up when it’s all over

wanna check out and just go

help me overcome brutal nature

preoccupied with unknowns

going shallow

subconsciously avoiding depth

I’m noticing my patterns

remembering

I know my true power

I allow things to expand

I’m waking up and it’s all over

gonna cash out and just go

learning to love fragile nature

romancing the unknowns

handle it

I’ll do more than just handle it

there’s creation in my blood

love it

beyond all growing expansiveness

I’m embracing boundlessness

I’m awake and it’s not over

no getting out of endless go

finally honoring dynamic nature

surrendering to unknowns

like poetry

at half past one in the morning

breaking all the rules again