So very strange, to type a random word into my Evernote app just to see what pops up. I chose the word “guess” and this was the oldest peice in my catalogue, Darlings:
Oct. 15, 2010My Darling,I don’t even know how to start… so many things are running through my head. I just wanted needed to let you know somehow – I love you. Look, I know you told me to run, and I am, but I have to be able to reach you. No matter where I go, or where they take you – I will find a way. I’ll be careful, I promise…I won’t tell you where I’m going (you’re the boss ;), but I’ll tell you what – I’m gonna be missing your presence next to me on the warm sandy beaches of… ah… great big oceans 😉 but yes, I guess it’s time for me to go find that lil’ hut I’ve always talked about – or, I suppose with the resources you left me, maybe not so lil’ and not so hut. Good god – I miss you something terrible tho. I know, no matter what, things will be okay… I know we’ll figure it out. It’s just so damn hard when it feels like my heart is tearing itself desperately out of my chest, just longing to be near you.Baby, I feel somewhat responsible for all this mess… I mean, I know you’ll just say that I’m being crazy, but really… I guess I just wonder if there was something I could have done to keep this from happening…I’m definitely not to be worried about my love – I’m going into serious mastermind mode lol, I’ll be keeping myself busy that’s for sure! It’ll be great – I’m gonna be sure to have everything ready for your return to… well me 😉 where ever that might end up being.OXO, Your Darling
Takes me back to an entirely different life, an entirely different Mayryanna.
Makes me laugh when I hear, “people can’t change!”
Guess I’m not people…