“Put some water on it so it doesn’t hurt their teeth…” My grandma likes to remind me how to feed her dogs each time I’m fixing them a meal. I purposefully ignore her though.

About a year and a half ago both of the dogs had to have multiple teeth removed due to decay caused by tartar buildup. We were told to feed them dry food at least once a day because the texture helps to clean their teeth… I have told my grandma this many times yet, she still fixes them their wet food with green beans and reminds me to soften the dry food I give them, every single time I feed them.

What’s going on here? It’s completely obvious to me that my grandma LOVES her dogs. They are so spoiled and cared for… Yet, some of her well-intentioned habits have actually harmed them. Not only that, but even upon learning this, she is still resistant to changing her perspective…

Recognizing Confirmation Bias

We’re all guilty of being blind to things. We each see life through the filters of our own experience… and my grandmother is no exception.

The dogs may have gotten dental issues due to their eating habits, but eventually their dental problems reinforced my grandma’s feeding them only soft food. Their teeth did hurt, she was right – but now that the bad teeth are out, we have to change things or we’ll end up in the cycle of doggy dental decay all over again.

That’s why I don’t listen to my grandmother. That’s why I’m sure to feed the dogs myself at least once a day… Not because I don’t understand where my grandma is coming from, and not because the dogs prefer dry food (not even a bit), but because change is what needs to happen and right now I am able to be its agent.

Benji, our “lil’ old man”

Releasing Judgment and Control

This isn’t exactly ideal. I hate having to ignore my grandma, but what’s the alternative? I have tried to educate her but she’s 85 and in many ways decidedly that “old dog” who doesn’t want to learn new tricks.

It certainly doesn’t make sense for me to force my grandma to change her ways, instructing her with the truth until I’m blue in the face. It also doesn’t make sense to just let her go on feeding the dogs incorrectly either though. So here I am, in the less-than-ideal reality.

All is well. I don’t need things to be ideal, I don’t need my grandma to understand and I don’t even need the dogs to like their dry food. Just as everything is, in all it’s imperfect realness, all is well.

I can do my part, I can be the agent of change, I can take action and simply release control. No, I won’t be here forever, but while I am I can do these special things that I am aware of and therefore responsible for. When I do leave, I will pass on the knowledge and be okay with that.

I won’t ever be able to ensure the dogs are getting fed in a way that helps keep their teeth clean while I’m not around, but that’s a part of it too. Accepting responsibility for co-creating a better world doesn’t mean your responsible for everything, all the time – it means you do what you can while you can.

Paxton, our “silly boy”

Enjoying Life’s Little Imperfections

For now, even with the dogs scowling and grandma chiming in, I feel blessed to have opportunities to provide these little canines with thoughtful nourishment. I also feel blessed to be able to recognize and see what’s going on without judgement.

I am grateful for the opportunities even this little situation gives me to reflect and learn about how humans operate. It certainly helps me to look out for my own biases and ignorance too – or at least remain more open to entertaining cognitive dissonance.

Life will never be perfect. We will never be able to control situations entirely, even if we are “right” and have truth on our side – and that’s okay. This journey isn’t ours alone and we are all learning, but by releasing control we can simultaneously step into our power and subjective truth whilst also allowing for others to experience theirs.

I wake up in the morning differently now. Instead of mindlessly scrolling, I’m reading and responding to messages of power. Across the world and right down the road, souls of great magnitude emanate their resound.

Little me all caught up in the glories of being in this synchronous network. I feel my magnificence increasing via my connections now, rather than diminishing from them, like I used to.

It’s not a matter of saying the right thing either. Our conversations span trauma, pain and resistance as well as healing, love and blessing. The wholeness of our brokenness with one another is a part of this community magick.

It feels like humanity. It feels like love – the way it was always meant to be.

It feels like encouragement with a side of reflection. It sounds like honesty about each individual’s perspective. It looks like people making a difference for one another – and it’s spreading…

This is the joy of my tribe, that it is not mine alone! That this transformative infection is so blissfully contagious! That the future is surely ours!

No, we are not perfect, but we also don’t require that impossibility from our love… We are real, we are raw, and we show up. We are better together and we know it.

The only thing I’m left wondering, is how long we will have to wait for this global tribe to become the new world culture… How long before we can truly embrace one another fully? Until then, this family simply can’t be done growing.

Trembling, afraid
I cower in the shadows

Feeling the booming
of ancient, endless voice

It calls to me in bellows
knocking me off my feet

the tenacity of its power
leaving me to bow eternally 



“Shakti, COME FORTH”
I am called into the magick

“Bhajan, SING!”
My voice emerges, rising –

Surprised by the echos
Divinity pouring from my mouth

Tears fall from my eyes
as all feeling consumes my heart



The pain lifts as melodies
soulful and deep as cavernous wounds

The joy of transformation follows
like the delicate whispers of bird songs

A feeling of expansion emanating
empty space ever growing in my chest

My heart encompassing all of it
even those things I desperately tried to forget



Further still, penetrating my center –
from within the hot, golden will of my destiny

Sounds of purification and laughter
songs of broken, healed and longing let be

The wind and tunes all tumble
escaping finally from their cage of fear

Suddenly, as though forever
I am again as I was always meant to be



“Shakti Bhajan, claim your birthright”
I hear as I am guided into astral ceremony 

To the temple of my own discovery
where mayryanna lays on the sacrificial stone

I see her there, so brilliantly clear
all her conditions and grooming laid bare

Watching as the song I sing
releases her limits into the ether, leaving me



I watch the trauma of little May
her confusion and pain all melting away

I see the hatred and anger of grief
as self-inflicted wounds of youth still bleed

I witness the poison of codependency
festering and fighting against the purge

Singing a song of terrors, all –
at once and again consumed by Love



Finally, her whole being dissolved
mayryanna was lifted into the heavens

Golden-rainbow dust foating
up from where her brokenness let go

No pain, no fear, no justification
simply a returning to sacred bliss

And as I watched her leave
I found within me her memories, reclaimed

I want to wisper
so close, breathing in –

Let your scent linger
on the edges of my lips

Taste your salt
and crave your sugar

Feel hearts beat
quicker, harder, louder –

You remind me –
an old song on breezes

Tumbling down 
your grassy hills of summer 

Looking behind
the shadows of my lonely

Spinning ’round
clouds underfoot, floating 

Lean in close
ebb with my flow

With all your soul
indulge deep and slow

Hush and listen
for lover’s soft quiver

Unfurl with grace
through Divine shivers

My beloved, tremble
every nerve celebrating

Give way to bliss 
all wonder unconsuming

Expansiveness known
we cannot resist our humble

Everywhere our home
after our egos have crumbled 

Witnessing growth
build strength in progress

Do these eyes still look
lost in their thoughtfulness?

I’ve been watching what
happened from different angles

It seems all that could be
are other versions of our tangle

“27!” I exclaim in my own mind. I have a funny smile on my face, holding a penny in my right hand while reaching into my left pocket with my other, feeling for the penny and quarter I picked up just minutes ago. “They’re both still there,” I consider briefly, “the penny didn’t just fall out – this is a NEW ONE!”

Yay, PENNIES!

Why am I so excited over just one more cent? Well, it would seem I’ve been playing a little game lately, with the Divine…

Starting Unannounced

At first, it was 12 cents. Two pennies and a dime that were found in the couch and left to sit on the side table. No one seemed to care about them, as they lay there with a few odd peices of trash.

I cleaned up the small pile of refuse, carefully removing the 3 coins and placing them in my pocket. Just hours later, a meme appeared on my screen, catching my eye. I don’t recall exactly what it said, but it was remarking on how a truly rich person sees the value in every penny.

It felt like an invitation, so I accepted. I am now officially a value scout, looking for each and every cent that may be left to the wayside as the bills and cards do the grunt work…

Making Metaphysical Investments

No, I don’t believe I will somehow amass a fortune one penny at a time. I do however believe that our actions create reactions, and that some of the most powerful reverberating effects happen as a result of some of the smallest, but also most intentional acts.

That’s why I’m picking up pennies like I just won the lottery. I am creating the frequency of gratitude and appreciation in my life, for every blessing, not just the BIG ones. I believe this small effort will be powerfully metaphysically transformative…

For example, let’s say you have a friend who you’ve tried to give little, “silly” gifts to from time to time. Little notes, funny shaped rocks, fresh plucked flowers – nothing expensive, but all heart felt. How would you feel about this person if they never seemed to care?

If every time your little gestures of love went ignored or even snubbed, would you keep trying to bless them? Maybe for a while, but eventually you’re going to learn to shower your affections elsewhere – and who would blame you??

Well, I’m seeing these pennies, nickles, dimes and quarters clearly for the first time: these little, inconsequential blessings are my opportunity to practice recieving. The Divine desires to shower me with all the abundance of its love and, in these small ways, is testing to see if I am willing and able to be blessed.

Not the Only Example of My Recent Internal Paradigm Shifts

In addition to the change in how I’m viewing change, I’m coming into a ever expanding awareness of my wealth as well. And I don’t mean financial…

I am fast becoming unable to ignore the blessings of my high caliber global network and the endless opportunities it creates for meaningful, creative work. I cannot deny my dozens of loving brothers and sisters around the world who actively invest in my growth, development and journey…. Or the amazing group of yogis I am blessed to be a part of, grow with and learn from locally.

The real kicker though?! I am profoundly coming into the awareness of my own value, capabilities and growth.

All that bullshit I’ve waded through to get here? Yep, it’s all gold now! The traumas, trials and tribulations of my past have been alchemized and transmuted by my commitment, love and devotion. I now have an endless amount of inspiration, experience and stories to offer the world… and it’s all EXTREMELY VALUABLE!

Redesigning My Future with Clarity

Overcoming depression, anxiety and C-PTSD without costly pharmaceuticals or therapy? Yep, did that. I can teach it. I can help people… Will it be easy for them? Hell no – they will have to fight through their karmic densities, confront their demons and grooming, killing their ego again and again – but for a serious soul that is seeking true liberation, it’s the only way and I’m honored to have the opportunity to share it…

My inner Wild Woman surveying her domain

Rediscovering magick, reenchanting life and creating an intentional future? Yep, I got you. I can guide and encourage souls on their own Shamanic journey to the underworld and back. Again, not an easy option or something you’ll find on an infomercial that swears it’s all you’ve ever needed, but it’s REAL and it works so I’m genuinely proud to have that experience available to offer others who are on the path.

Utilizing the breath, movement and sound as biological technologies in order to amplify the highest qualities of one’s being whilst also clearing and purifying global karma? Yep, I’m learning that too and it’s changing my life every day. It’s certainly an education that I feel honored and privileged to recieve and I cannot wait to help others help themselves with it too.

Kundalini Whites on the Mountain

Tapping into Divine source for messages of guidance, healing love energy or the ability to teach without ego? Yep, I call it “getting out of the way” and it’s truly all I’m really good at. I am inspired to share my channeling abilities with others and bless them myself, but even more excited about encouraging and helping others to find their own channels and reconnect directly with the Divine themselves in these ways… And there could never be anything more valuable than that.

Writing clearly about subversive and unpopular topics that have the potential to change the course of human history? Oh hey! I can even do that!

I could keep going, but I think my point has been made. I AM VALUABLE. Incredibly valuable… and it’s time I start acting like it and treating myself with the respect I would give any person that I consider successful, wealthy and accomplished.

These pennies are small reminders right now of just how powerful I can be – but I’m set on learning and it won’t be long before the Divine has rightly built confidence in my appreciation… I expect the little gifts to grow in proportion to my faith, but I am also committed to celebrating every single cent along the way too.

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Blessed be my beloveds! I hope each of you find a penny for yourselves today too…