Another week is dawning and I for one am grateful to have made it through the heart wrenching emotional gymnastics of last week’s soul-healing vibes. The cosmos wasted no time in shaking us all up and now that things have gotten real, real deep, we’re being told to relax and trust the divine.

This week’s spread was intuitive, moving across the chakra stones barrier in the middle of my table mat in a zigzag fashion; beginning at the top left, moving to the center right and then down to the bottom left before beginning again at the top right and mirroring the pattern on the opposite sides all the way down. I find the importance of feminine and masculine energies being brought into balance as well as the double helix form both indicated in this spread.

I began with the Shadowscapes Tarot Deck:

This Week’s Intuitive Spread

Acknowledgement

VII The Chariot (Shadowescapes Tarot Deck)

We have been seen! The Major Arcana card XII, The Chariot indicates that the shadowy journeys we’ve taken into the depths of raw, ugly yet essential truth are being recognized. We are being hailed as the captains of our own destiny’s and our guides are celebrating our autonomy, not through subjugation but rather, through glorious harmonization!

As the 11/11 portal opens on Monday, we start our week with a powerful suspension of time and space. The heavens, our ancestors and deities, are all pulling back at the edges of reality to create an endlessness in which we are given a chance to take that rejuvenating deep breath we’ve been longing for. This won’t look like a lazy day though, in fact, anticipate the flow state and don’t be surprised when you get a lot more than you planned done for a change.

The divine message of this day is: “I am a blessed child of the divine!”

A Challenge

XIX The Sun, Reversed (Shadowscapes Tarot Deck)

In the midst of this glorious and divinely supportive celebration, we are still being called to refine and explore our awareness. The Sun coming up reversed is not typically considered fortunate, as the Sun is one of the most fortunate cards in the deck and a reversal suggests density or conflict of some kind, yet I intuit this to indicate a highly fortunate opportunity all the same.

We are all being called to reconsider what success, joy and fortune mean to us. I feel this reversal is speaking more to an internal condition rather than an external circumstance. What are the ways in which you might be limiting the joy and luck in your life because of personal biases or conditioned beliefs? Be prepared to start asking this and questions like it on Tuesday the 12th when the moon reaches peak fullness in the sign of Taurus.

We would be wise to use these sesual, mindful Taurean energies and the illumination of the full moon to help us see gaps in our self-care and carve out long term plans for facilitating better habits for ourselves. Why must success equal the delegation of our needs or wants? Perhaps we can have every luxury, if only we stop waiting for others to provide them for us and do the work of reaping rewards for ourselves.

The divine message of this day is: “I am as happy as I could ever be, right now!”

Empowerment

I The Magician (Shadowscapes Tarot Deck)

The Magician card is the second card in the Major Arcana, denoted “I” because the Fool begins the set at “0.” This card is one of empowerment and asks us to look to ourselves for that which we need and desire.

Given the previous two cards, I intuit this energy to be further promoting a self-inventory of sorts. Recognize your autonomy the way your guides, deities and ancestors do; challenge any biases and dogma that keep you from the joy of each pure moment; finally, take notice of all your inherent gifts, talents and wealth. We all have so much we can be grateful for, if only we take the time to do so.

Set the limits of your wanting. Decide for yourself when more is no longer better. Make unpopular, genuine and authentic choices. See your personal human potential as the brilliantly unique gift that it is, not merely as a means to justify your existence.

Blessings Abounding

Source Dragon (Dragon Oracle Cards Deck)

Jupiter, the bearer of luck and prosperity, will begin traversing the Galactic Center on Wednesday the 13th. It will be in exact conjunction with the Center on the 19th but we will start to feel the powerful pull of this celestial alignment right away and continue to experience reverberations all the way up through the Sagittarius New Moon on the 26th. This Source Dragon card speaks directly to the power of this potent potentiality.

What does that mean for this week? Sit back, relax and get ready. It’s been watching and now, the cosmos has something it wants to show you!

The Galactic Center is at the very heart of our galaxy and consists of a black hole, a cosmic womb. When the planetary benefactor aligns with the heart of this womb, anything is possible – and with the numerological, astrological and divinatory support of the previous two days leading up to this alignment (which only happens every 12 years), we can all be sure that the divine itself is planting the seeds for our ultimate blessings to manifest!

Divine message for the 13th – 25th: “the entire cosmos aspires to bless me!”

Heart Work

Isis and Osiris (Goddesses Knowledge Card Deck)

The next card drawn encourages us not to lose sight of ourselves and our hard fought autonomy amidst all the intoxicating justifications of ego’s discontentment. Just because the divine has got our backs doesn’t mean our life’s work is done, but that’s no reason to deny ourselves the joy of living either.

Isis is one of the oldest goddesses in the Egyptian pantheon and is known for bringing her assassinated husband back to life. She is a moon goddess who gives birth to the sun. She represents the value of the fulness of life, including the dark night and even grief itself.

I believe Isis appears hear as a gentle reminder of our reversed Sun card’s message: we must question our conditions, limitations and biases. Perhaps our curses are truly blessings, disguised by our very own prejudices and perspectives. Perhaps a painless, lossless, mundane life isn’t really what we desire and we actually need the difficulties and challenges of life as much as we desire the celebrations and fortune.

Our challenges create strength in us, our weaknesses provide opportunities for growth and our love, in truth, is our commitment to preserving through pain, grief and sadness. As the divine showers us with love and affection this week, we have the perfect opportunity to look within and ask ourselves: “in what ways have I been limiting my happiness for the sake of my ego?”

Divine reminder in this card for this entire week: “my brokenness blesses!”

The Summation

The Runes Thurisaz, Tir and Ing (from top down)

Lastly, I pulled three Runes and got a beautiful summery for the week’s reading: “we are divinely supported and adored, we can rest assured that our victory is already ours; we accept the blessings of our birthright and enjoying the abundance of life’s glories right now!”

We must simply go forth and be the miracles we already are! I hope that we all find all the sensual, meaningful and glorious satisfaction available to us this week. If/when we feel the resistence to just dive into divine bliss, let’s ask ourselves: what could be more important?

Thurisaz = protection and luck
Tir = success and victory
Ing = accomplishment and relief

I wanted to do a bit of an astrology/numerology forecast for November today, but I’ve been in training all day and need to be up at 4am for Sadhana tomorrow. So, what I have is very brief and mostly intuitive!

Starting with a BANG!

I’m certainly feeling it! This month wastes no time getting things started, it might even feel like the chaos of October just keeps going – but so much has indeed changed.

October was all about redefining who we are, what we mean to this world and how we show up. November is about putting that into action. Coming off this freshly infused identity crisis/confirmation will carry some momentum, which is what we are experiencing now.

November packs a punch in its own right too though. 11 resonates as the first of the “angel numbers” and teaches us about our relationship to the divine. So even though things might still be hectic, you may have also noticed a cosmic shift to a more sacred or serious tone.

A Steady, Sensual Slowing…

The bustle of the beginning of this month will begin to slow as we all gradually settle into a new, more present and purposeful pace. Mercury has already turned retrograde on the 31st and is contributing to this retraction of outward energy flow.

Mercury won’t turn direct until November 20th, so in the interim, don’t push yourself – especially with regard to communication. Now is the time for personal contemplation. Really, truly allow yourself to integrate the happenings of the last week, month, year… Get cozy in your own mind and heart, the depth of your inner journey can only make for much more interesting holiday conversations anyway – and by that time Mercury will be more supportive too!

The noticable peak of this slowdown will begin in conjunction with the Taurus Full Moon on the 12th. We will all feel called to start making our surroundings more cozy, warm and comfortable. We will also feel called to communicate with others in more satisfying and sensual ways.

More of a draw to visit with friends and family, a desire to plan for the holidays and general good cheer are all possible. For those who are resistant however, this may result in an acute awareness of the cold, loneliness and isolation, bitterness and irritability, as well as a desire to retreat amidst a sense of entrapment. Senses will be heightened regardless, be mindful of how you employ them.

The Full Moon will be an ideal day for some divination if you desire. It will carry a reflective energy of your 2019 harvest.

A Gentle ReQuickening

We get to enjoy a slow build back up from Mercury turning direct on the 20th to Neptune making his turn direct on the 27th. The watery giant has been causing us to dive deeper into possibilities than ever for the past 5 months while traveling retrograde and we will all notice it’s snap “back to reality.”

Despite Neptune lacking the fiery energy of Mars or the Sun, I intuit this turn will still feel charged. Remember, water conducts electricity – get ready to feel a jolt!

The depths to which you have traveled will give you every chance to reach even higher highs. The key will be a willingness to flow with the current and release anything that might hinder your newly impassioned dreams. Allow the spiritual and emotional lessons of these past five months to nourish your truth and launch you even further into authenticity.

A Day for Ceremony

Conveniently, the day before Neptune turns direct, we have a New Moon in Sagittarius on the 26th. There could not be a more opportune time for a purposeful alignment with your goals. Take the time for a simple New Moon ceremony that day in which you write out your reflections of the past 5 months:

  • What were the major spiritual and emotional themes?
  • In what ways did you find yourself going deeper and what did you discover in those explorations?
  • What have you learned about your authenticity, ego and self-expression?
  • How have these things changed or inspired your dreams?

Once you have written yourself to the point of passion and gratitude for all the possibilities and opportunities you’ve already created for yourself (and not a moment sooner), pen a formal letter to the heavens. Tell Neptune himself what you want the charge of his turning direct to launch you towards!

Once your letter is complete, meditate with it. Use the archetypal archer vibration of the Sagittarius New Moon to shoot your letter out into the astral universe, following it all the way from your own bow and arrow to the heart/hands of Neptune on his watery throne. If you prefer, you can meditate with the archetype of any benevolent, heart-centered diety: Christ, Buddha, Kuan Yin, etc… Once you are finished you can keep or responsibly dispose of your letter.

That’s it! Feel free to dress it up with your own prayers, and light a candle or incense beforehand if you like too. The best ceremony ingredient is always your own personal intuition.

Surrender to the Rhythm

As you can see, there’s a bit of ebb and flow to come this November. Don’t fight it. Finesse it.

Find the rhythm and your own particular harmony. The cold doesn’t have to be bitter, the slowing doesn’t have to be tense. Relax.

‘Tis the season my friends! Let’s reclaim some holiday cheer and spread it ’round, far and near! Blessed be!

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Today I woke up surprised to feel refreshed. I’ve been fighting a yeast bloom in my body, including inescapable inflammation, grogginess and fatigue. I have found myself frustrated time and time again by my own lack of energy, focus and desire these past few weeks.

Going straight from my dieta-clean-lifestyle in May and the first half of June while on retreat, to coming home and experiencing extreme stress, eating poorly at the hospital or restaurants, combined with losing track of yoga and meditation, made my blood toxic within a matter of weeks. Since grandma has been recovering however, I’ve begun to realise the extent of my recent personal neglect, though still surprised to be experiencing this plethora of consequences.

I’ve been taking small steps to correct the issues for about 2 weeks now, and I’m finally feeling some progress I guess. Thankfully.

Coming into Awareness

I have a tendency to be hard on myself for not performing at a high level, even when situations require otherwise. I always want to do more, help more, study more, clean more, create more, produce more, consider more, provide more, and even be more. I’ve felt this for the past few weeks, ever-growing as my energy was ever-depleting.

The more I pushed, the more my body resisted. I wanted attention. It needed rest, love and care. I needed to start paying attention – instead I tried to blissfully ignore the feelings of burn out build in my body, not understanding how I could feel so defeated from doing less and less.

I had just come home from retreat after all! I was feeling good spiritually, emotionally and mentally, which was enough to carry me for a while. However, when I started to ignore my needs for spiritual, emotional, and mental nourishment, my physical nourishment became erratic too.

At first the bad decisions seemed so forced. I’d be hungry and have limited options. Still, I soon found myself compulsively choosing high-processed, high-sugar foods even when I was home. I blamed myself further for my return to “comfort” or “emotional” eating yet again, when I had been doing so well.

This wasn’t the whole story though. Fortunately I began listening to Charles Esinstein’s The Yoga of Eating and began to understand that my environment was nourishing, or in recent situations, not nourishing me. Furthermore, I realised that the other nourishing habits I had cultivated before had been abandoned as well. I wasn’t simply comfort eating, I was starving for my own comfort and love.

Turning a Corner

In my recent fog I have also largely abandoned my studies and my divination practices. So this morning, reveling in my sense of renewed clarity, I spent some time catching up on celestial movements and my subconscious reflections.

Upon learning that Venus is moving into alignment and crossing the sun this week, as well as that the full moon will be occurring right after, I chose a 3-card spread representing Venus/Sun/Full Moon or Love/Ego/Harvest. I pulled the following from The Wild Unknown deck by Kim Krans:

Ace if Wands (inverted), 6 of Cups (inverted), and The Sun

I found the Ace of Wands inverted in the Venus/Love position and the 6 of Cups in the Sun/ego position to mirror the meaning of the Venus Cazimi (transiting through the heart of the sun). Here’s my intuitive reading:

Turn within in love, birthing yourself anew through the radical acceptance and awareness of your ego. Let the part of yourself that remains as a child despite the disciplines, consequences and growing pains of life reemerge and be celebrated. Remember what it is to play and allow yourself to become enraptured by the act of living again. Relearn your Innocence.

In this instance, my Full Moon/Harvest card also plays the Outcome position. Having the sun appear here was exactly the encouragement I needed to go within and face any resistance to self-love, self-nourishment and self-awareness I may have had. I broke.

Crying over the spread, I laughed at the absurd beauty. Grateful for the synchronous connections in my life that are always at work, even despite my own distractions, negligence and imperfect grasping. Marveling yet again at life’s impermanence.

I accepted the invitation to learn from my difficulties these past few weeks and now, to move on. I will embrace my playful innocence and release myself from the judgment of high performance. I will choose to embrace my ego for the beautiful expression of life it can be, rather than allow it to mutate into ever-changing evidence for self-loathing.