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Just, now…

It’s twelve to 10pm and the house is quiet. The light rustling of grandma and her two little dogs settling for the night upstairs has stopped and other than the faint hum of electronics, only my cat’s gentle purrs can be heard.

My cold has made it hard to sleep the past several nights and I’ve been groggy all day, though admittantly, I’m not sure if the medicine I’m taking is playing a role in making me feel so weird too…

My friend and I are upping our workouts from 3 times a week to 5, so I need to be up before 6am again tomorrow… I want to wind down with some more of my audio book, but I’m not sure I’ll be able to track the information effectively. I tried the other night and caught myself drifting to sleep instead of paying attention.

Perhaps I should just go to bed – but I’m still on the couch, writing this so I can get something posted…

I’m wondering what to take a picture of for this post…

I’m wondering how long this cold will last…

I’m wondering why my grandma’s old poodle has decided to suddenly start barking incessantly…

I’m wondering how my life will change once again in 2 weeks at the Apotheosis 4.0 retreat…

I’m wondering…

I went to see a close friend of mine this evening and we talked a lot. We’ve been missing one another for the past few weeks, evwn though she’s just down the street from me….

She’s a momma of two young children and rightfully busy, but we share a sacred and special bond that despite all our many differences keeps us closer than close on the soul level… I’m so grateful for her. We can talk about anything, and we talk about everything.

I’m so grateful….

I am so, so damn grateful.

My life isn’t perfect and I’ve got a lot of work to do, but wow – WAHE GURU!

I am blessed.

a view from my couch…

I’m thankful for this house, for my grandma and her dogs. I’m thankful for my cats and my bed. I’m thankful for my friends, the wide variety they come in and all the different ways they inspire me…

I’m grateful that sickness is something I experience rarely, and for my strong, healthy body and all the ways it fights for and supports me…

I’m grateful for my curious mind, my compassionate heart and my adventurous spirit…

I’m am grateful for now. Just, now… In all its brilliant, imperfect life-ness…

I’m thankful to be me. Bless my dear soul! Yes, blessed be… Blessed be –

Filling in the Blanks

Ah, life…

I wanted to start this post with another “it’s been a crazy week,” or “sorry I haven’t had time to write something current lately,” but then I realized – I don’t feel that way. So I’m not going to say it.

The weekend was great. I’m sick and have largely been scraping by the last 3 days, barely cognizant sometimes, but I also still managed to spend mother’s day with my momma bear and that is so special to me.

I’m laying here, with beads of sweat on my forehead, feeling gross and icky, but I’m also feeling proud of the fact that I still woke up at 6am today to workout with my friend before I did my Sadhana (it wasn’t much of a workout but the commitment is what’s been making the real difference anyway). I’m feeling blessed, accomplished and grateful. I’m also wondering when this stupid head cold will finally pass…

And that’s just it…

That’s life. THIS is life! It’s never all good or all bad, there are always ups and downs, things don’t ever remain nice and categorical and reality’s “peaks” and “valleys” often coincide. There’s no destination that escapes the densly diverse experiences of existence.

That’s why perspective, intention and focus matter so much. We all make our own meaning.

I could focus on how “crazy” things feel when I am not accomplishing everything I want to accomplish, but then I’m probably only going to foster more manic energy for myself. I can fixate on all the ways I’ve not been “keeping up” with the make believe standards I’ve set in place for myself, but then I’m really only harvesting dissapointment and discontent.

The truth is, I get to choose

No one’s life is perfect, but I can certainly enjoy mine should I decide to. Sure, being sick isn’t easy to enjoy necessarily, but I can still be grateful that I’m alive and take the extra pause to appreciate my blessings. Instead of worrying about all the things I haven’t gotten to yet, I can be thankful I have so many opportunities, trust and responsibility.

So, this is me basking… I’m drinking it all in and savoring every drop. I love you life! I’m so blessed by the good, the bad and everything in between…

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