Tag: mindfulness

Best Laid Plans

I had a great Solstice yesterday. Basically, nothing went according to my plans, yet somehow, that’s okay. It’s also unsurprising.

While I did make it out to greet the sun at sunrise, the unseasonably wet and cold weather here in Colorado had me imagining the light through the overcast sky and foggy mountains. I also didn’t lay all of my tools out for charging outside, as thunderstorms were on the forecast and it became obvious they weren’t going to be an inaccurate prediction. I again got creative and chose to charge everything indoors, in front of my “Sun” tapestry.

Stones and crystals charging by “The Sun”

Such is life right? We make plans, we have disruptions or get new information, we adjust. Flexibility is the joy of reality, as long as we’re not resisting.

It wasn’t until later in the day, after a wonderful time at the hot springs for my mom’s birthday, that I realised I wouldn’t be home in time for my sunset ritual and began to feel my control-freakery start rearing its head. I recognized it, I felt it, and then I let it pass. I chose to remain grateful for the time my family all got to experience together and how happy that had made my mom.

Still, I was all to aware as we drove home as the clock ticked ever closer to the time of sunset… Until, all too perfectly, my sister who’s home visiting from living internationally, began a conversation about what had transpired in the last 10 months since she’d been in the states. My youngest sister started, and then I followed, only focusing on the last 8 months since I had visited my sister while in Europe this past fall.

I was deep in review, detailing the focuses and events that had transpired, when I noticed the time again. It was right when I had been wanting to hold ritual. I had to laugh a bit to myself, as I felt the tension of my desire for control slowly unconstrict the back of my neck.

In my recollection of the past 8 months with my sisters, I organically reviewed the past 6 in more detail than I had done for myself. I had the opportunity to truly appreciate the trials and challenges, as well as check-points and accomplishments, and I found myself marveling at my own journey. In this way, I got my ritual – the exact ritual I needed, even if it wasn’t a ritual of my own design.

This is one of my greatest joys as a Pagan, and a lesson I keep getting the opportunity to learn: my purpose isn’t something I need to do, it’s a part of my intrinsic being. In a world where we are constantly asked to justify our existence though, this can be so hard! When you meet someone, they ask “what do you do,” not “how do you choose to be?”

Yet, despite social expectations, and perhaps even in spite of current cultural norms, the universe does give us subtle reminders of our beingness. Through the little things, like noticing numerological patterns or finding ourselves lost in the perfect conversation at just the right time, we get to escape from the pressure of “having it all together” and get to experience the grace of divinity as it carries us through.

I’m so grateful for this reminder. I’m so thankful that my rituals ended up being infused with the inconvenient and uncontrollable flair of reality. I’m also thankful that I get to be the slightly obsessive and thoroughly eccentric ME who can acknowledge and appreciate imperfections as opportunities rather than defeats.

Blessed Summer Solstice

It’s time. Time to harvest all that has been manifested since the darkest point of the year, 6 months ago. Time to prepare for the gradual turning inward as the days grow shorter for the next 6 months. It is the Summer Solstice here in the Northern hemisphere and on the Wheel of the Year, this is the node which correlates to the Full Moon energy of our monthly lunar cycles/phases.

Subtle but Saturating Significance

It is a time to reap what we have sown, but also a time to start thinking about the preparations we will need to make for the challenges and tribulations of the long, dark nights to come. This is a day of both celebration and commitment, of both looking back as well as forward. It is a chance to review our progress, reflect on our growth, reorient ourselves with our values and reestablish our devotion.

A powerful day indeed. I for one will be participating in full, with both a sunrise ritual to honor the growth and manifestations in my life these past 6 months, as well as a sunset ritual to dedicate myself to purposeful intentions for the next 6 months.

My personal Summer Solstice Rituals plan

Decoding the Signs

Already I’ve noticed something quite spectacular about the timing of my rituals today. There is a numerological theme. Both the time of sunrise and sunset here in my hometown reduce to 13/4.

I absolutely LOVE seeing patterns. I don’t believe in accidents or coincidences so they immediately stand out to me as signs and synchronicities. I also have a soft spot for numerology because it was the first form of divination I was ever called to.

This combination of numbers is potent and powerful. The 13 is a karmic number, and though it can often be met with resistance, it symbolizes great transformational potential. 1 is a number representing independence or the individual, and 3 a number of unbridled creativity – together these numbers can indicate that there is a need for personal manifestation.

13 is a call to come into your strength, revoke the excuses or justifications of your past, and step fully into the purpose of your destiny. I’m sure you can see why some might shy away from it. In its challenge for you to grow, there is an acknowledgment of having obstacles or set backs to overcome. For those unwilling to drop their ignorance and accept responsibility for their mastery, this number is an unwelcome and uncomfortable energy. Yet, for those of us already on our path of optimization, 13 is an accelerator, adding fuel to our already molten burning will to change ourselves and the world.

4 is a beautiful number as well, and not as turbulent as the 13. In fact, to some, 4 can be considered quite dull. It is the number of foundation and order.

Following the 13, I do not see this 4 as boring at all though – in fact, I believe it is just the opposite, especially for Summer Solstice. Just as we are putting to rest the chaotic efforts of the waxing energy of the past 6 months and replacing it with the waining energy of devotion and discipline for our purposeful intentions of the next 6 months, the 4 is following/completing the energy of the 13 in similar fashion. How synchronous indeed.

Enjoying the Magnificence

It is in this bliss of recognition that I begin my day and my observance. What a blessing to feel wrapped up in the divine and cosmic tapestry, in which every thread is meticulously and mindfully woven into place. What peace. What assurance. What appreciation and joy.

It is with this resonance of awe that I begin my rituals today, and it is with this same reverence that I will end my rituals this evening as well. In the blessing of a magickal life, I wish you all the same wonder and enchantments of today, for always.