December will start with a welcome reprieve from the last two month’s bustle. At least for the next week or so, we will feel like we are able to catch our breath and start to get ahead of our holiday to-dos. This month’s not without it’s own astrological and numerological punches though, so let’s take a look at what’s in store as 2019 comes to a close:

Mirrored Moon Magick

The Full Moon in Gemini on the 12th will have our minds kicking into high gear about this past year, so don’t be surprised if you find yourself flipping between many different perspectives about all that’s transpired. A full moon is all about illumination, and we’ll all have the unique opportunity to see things clearly, holistically and more unbiased than ever.

Interestingly, this reflective energy is mirrored in the 12/12 code (a double dose of which goes to those in the EST timezone where the fullness of this phase reaches its peak at 12:12am). If you’ll recall, 2019 is a 12/3 year numerologically, and here we see the 12/3 code doubled (or even quadrupled), on a night of a full moon in Gemini, the astrological sign of the cosmic twins.

What’s what and who’s who? It might even start to feel like your mind is locked inside of a carnival funhouse full of distorted mirrors. That level of mental disorientation gives rise to madness, but it doesn’t have to.

Have you done the work of finding your stoic tranquility and resilience this year? Have you found space within yourself where the expansiveness of truth and the brilliance of purpose do not have to be in conflict? Have you identified the values, habits and goals of your most sovereign and authentic self? Are you willing to part ways with those things that might be okay or fine, but ultimately just spoil your chances at true fulfillment?

If you haven’t figured out what keeps you centered and/or chaotic yet, you’re about to. Ready or not. The majority of this month will be dedicated to what’s settled after this year stirred everything up.

The Sun’s Rebirth

The 21st of this month will mark Midwinter, or Winter Solstice here in the Northern Hemisphere. It will also mark the start of my own personal Pagan Yule Celebration that will run for 12 days, ending on January 1st 2020.

Winter Solstice marks the longest night of the year, after which the days will begin growing longer once again. It is for this reason Pagans of all types held celebrations at this time of year.

In addition to the promise of a warming earth and next year’s possibilities of harvest, celebrations were held to encourage merriment and lift spirits among loved ones and friends during this dark and cold days. The traditions of decorating, feasting and gift-giving all combining to create what is even called the “holiday season” in modern times.

You too can reclaim this holy day season for yourself. It doesn’t have to be a time of consumerism and drama. Either join me on my journey of the 12 Days of Yule, December 21st – January 1st, or simply decide to make your celebrations and gift giving more intentional this year for yourself.

An Ecliptic Affair

The day after Christmas, on the 26th, we will have our Annular Solar Eclipse. This means the sun will be all but blocked from view here on earth by the moon in a cosmic alignment of these three celestial bodies.

This alignment will happen in the astrological sign of Capricorn and occurs each year around this time. This eclipse in particular has beneficial aspects with both Jupiter and Uranus.

Good luck, new opportunities and bold chances are all a possibility as we cross into the 2nd half of Yule celebrations and approach the new solar year. How will you be allowing the wisdom of your lunar sensitivities to inform and filter your own glorious solar power? What are the ways your inner truth can support the best of your outer expressions?

Get ready to start asking these questions and more as we shift from a more community centered perspective to a more individualized one after our Christmas activities come to a close. We’re all becoming more aware of how quickly time passes us by as we prepare to welcome the year 2020. What are you doing with your life? What had you imagined you would’ve accomplished by now and how did you think the world might be different?

It’s all as much about you as it is anything else. We are all a part of this reality we call life, contributing to it for better or for worse. In that way, our individual insecurity or empowerment has consequences that reach far beyond our own personal experiences. Consider your own alignments and their outcomes; you are cosmically supported to make a shift at this time, even a radical one, so make it intentional and dare to expand the blessings of your life’s repercussions before ever stepping foot into 2020.

Divinatory Conclusions

Source Dragon, Dragon Oracle Cards Deck

The first card pulled for this month is one we saw last month as well, indicating our work continues. Even though the month starts off in a bit of a lull, we aren’t quite done with the deep, transformational process we’ve been undergoing this year. Calm seas can be deadly, just below the surface.

Integration is not only beneficial, it is essential. We must take the time to learn the lessons that have been presented to us at a soul level, only then will we come into our true strength of Spirit. Release the ego, more. Trust the divine, more. Actualize your enlightenment, more. Just be, more.

Find yourself by losing your sense of rightness. In this suspended fullness, get on a mat or chair and just sit. Explore the separation dividing you from source until it dissolves completely and you are left with only Truth.

Dignity, Wisdom of the Crone Deck

Our next card seems to speak to the energy of the eclipse and the call we’ve all recieved to embrace our sovereign selves. This is similar to the message of the Source Dragon card, but it turns the attention to the Source within as opposed to the Source as it might be outside of ourselves.

I believe it came prior to the last card as a reminder to carry this dignity and sovereignty with us into our holiday celebrations. Yet, we are not left without our lighthearted seasonal merriment either.

Orange Dragon, Dragon Oracle Cards Deck

Our last card draw for the month is the Orange Dragon and brings a message that echos the purposes of Pagans past:

“Spread belonging, warmth and oneness. Bring people everywhere together.”

Orange Dragon, Dragon Oracle Cards Deck

As we traverse the long nights of this dark season, towards the promise of the sun’s rebirth, let us not forget the light we carry within ourselves. We have the ability to be warm or cold, loving or cruel, marry or bitter. Choose for yourself, but choose with the awareness of how you matter and mean to others as well.

Blessed Be Beloveds! May your 2019 finish as spectacularly as your 2020 begins!

Today’s Channel

Beads of sweat, more than brimming – threatening, taunting, dripping into our eyes. We’re at the starting gate, chomping at the bit, yet held back by forces we don’t fully comprehend. Our whole being feels propelled forward yet we are physically stuck.

Minds racing, hearts pounding – heat pooling at our cores, threatening eruption. Freedom and purpose beckoning us from just beyond our limitations. “If only!” We cry, begging with destiny for the mercy to break out of our constraints and experience the fulfillment of these aching passions.

“Patience Beloveds.”

We are asked yet again to wait, but more even – we are asked to transform our waiting. We are being asked to develop our resilience, our steadfastness, our power and strength. We are not being tested, we are being transformed.

The opportunity of the archer lies not in the moment of the arrows flight, but in the calm and subtle positioning of their posture before they ever take the shot. It is that time now. We must take notice of our state, our your challenges and discomforts, our anxiety and anxious longing – we can take note of everything right now and adjust it all according to the trajectory of our targets.

Let everything be shaken loose by our passions. Let all priorities be sorted by our unapologetic truth. Become the nobel sovereigns, taking full responsibility for our lives and our goals, enabling ourselves with gratitude and authenticity.

“This moment is as precious as any. Savor your opportunities to survey and strategize. Indulge fully in the experience of your befores, for they all too soon become your afters…”

Heavenly Movements

Mars opposite Uranus has all of us feeling irritable, anxious and annoyed. We want to do, we want to go, we want to accomplish – yet, all our efforts seem stifled, and to make it worse, we are the ones getting in our own way.

We keep reexamining, reconsidering, rehashing – we’ve learned so much in these past 5 months, but for the life of us we can’t put our finger on any of it. We feel disturbed, disrupted and even somewhat defeated. What a place to be! Both charged and subdued.

This is further aggravated by Neptune’s eminent turn direct tomorrow. We’ve been stewing in our own emotional, idealistic and passionate juices since July and we’ve had enough. Like a kettle slowly coming to a boil on the stove, we want to express ourselves loudly!

So what’s holding us back? In addition to its opposition to Mars, Uranus is also conjunct Venus, in her cardinal sign of Taurus. Not only is our action being opposed by ingenuity and change, but the very stability and foundations of our world are entertaining revolution and regeneration as well. Everything is up in the air right now, so we have no where to move forward from.

That is, unless we create it for ourselves, and that is exactly the power play move available to us today.

A Sovereignty Ritual

Get out a peice of paper and create two columns, titled “Spoiled” and “Sovereign” at the top. Now, tap in to yourself. Feel deeply into this moment, right now. Don’t force any thoughts, feelings or expectations – just sit.

Once you’ve found a place of calm within yourself, begin to write: anything you desire that resonates with either column should be placed there. The “Spoiled” column representing things that you desire purely from an egoic, fear or pleasure based standpoint. The “Sovereign” column representing the longing of your soul, your gifts/callings and the things that you feel a grateful responsibility towards.

No judgements, just discernment; place things out of authenticity rather than “rightness.” Some things in my columns will be opposite to how others place their associations, and that’s how it should be; our differences are our ticket to freedom.

Write for as long as necessary. Delve into every facet and faction of your life; leave no stone unturned. When you are done, read and reflect. Reexamine each and every association for traces of cross contamination from perceived egoic “rightness” and adjust as necessary until you are sure the lists are accurate and true.

Now it is time to make intentions. Are the things in your “Spoiled” column things you can willingly sacrifice for the benefit of the things in your “Sovereign” column? Why it why not? If it makes you uncomfortable or brings you pain, examine why, without judgement. Explore this idea for as long as feels productive and focus on developing a plan for what limitations you will be sacrificing as well as for what corresponding opportunities.

You do not need to sacrifice/adopt everything on your lists and can return to do this exercise again and again as you like. Look for patterns and groupings and choose one type of corresponding behaviors to focus on for now. Once you have your selection, grab two more pieces of paper and this time write a letter to both your Spoiled self and your Sovereign self.

Include what you are letting go of and why. Offer thanks and appreciation for all of the experiences and reasons you have kept these things with you, acknowledging their place in your life before relinquishing your attachment to them.

Detail what you will be nurturing in yourself and how your sacrifices will support your Sovereign intentions. Remain grateful and humble, trying to present everything objectively and clearly. Redefine the relationships you have with these parts of yourself, intentionally, with the precision of a master archer taking aim.

Once finished, you will burn the list and the two letters (please do so safely/responsibly). Starting with the lists, then the Spoiled letter and finally the Sovereign letter. This last act energetically releases your intentions to the Cosmos and seals the ritual as complete.

You may also bury the writings if you wish. With the fire element you will be adding the masculine/activation energy to your intentions (appealing to the Mars archetype at play), whereas by burying them you will be adding the feminine/incubation energy to your intentions (appealing to the Venusian vibes). Ask yourself about the urgency of your requests, you may even feel called to burn one and bury another – follow your intention’s prompting here.

The Essential

Regardless of whether you do the entire ritual above, take some time today to set intentions. This is a powerful and potent opportunity that will have cascading effects throughout the next year.

Where do you want to be and how are you going to get there? What’s holding you back and how soon can you let go of those constraints? What truth exists in you, that when fully expressed creates unlimited self-admiration and respect, and how can you express that truth more and more?

Blessed be my dears, may you have the courage to do the hard and honest things, today and every day!

Welcome to the last week of November 2019! As we approach the final month of the year, the skies sure are alight with movement:

In the Stars

On Monday the 25th, Jupiter is finishing his jaunt across the Galactic Center and is posing some questions to our deepest knowing; what is our purpose when we get beyond the ego? How might the hard choices be the more fulfilling ones? Is getting everything we want really what we need?

This probing query serves to get us ready to launch our truly authentic and tested intentions out into the cosmos on Tuesday, with the help of the New Moon in Sagittarius. Be sure to take full advantage of this opportunity in order to set yourself up for a windfall of intuitive and passionate energy as Neptune turns direct on Wednesday!

We’ll be enjoying (or at least riding) this flow into Thanksgiving and our weekend’s sure to be filled with tender, heart-filled moments – that is if we can ease into this new, more expressively emotive energy. Coming out of this inner, personally reflective time might have some of us feeling raw and vulnerable tough, so take it easy on yourself and others. You will have time to integrate and express, for now just enjoy your loved ones and allow the holiday cheer to lift you up rather than drag you down.

The Call

“Look around your world and see where you have confused the fulfillment of desire with the role of sovereign… and take up the mantel of that role in your life now.”

The Sovereign, Oracle of the Dragonfae Deck
The Sovereign (Gentle power), Oracle of the Dragonfae Deck

The Cosmos is taking no prisoners this week, and our divinatory reading is agreeing with the stars: we all have to fight for our very lives! No, it isn’t death of the body at stake, but rather the death of the spirit OR the death of the ego. No longer can we serve two masters: we must choose.

Jupiter crossing through the Galactic Center has allowed us to glimpse beyond our perceived limitations and Neptune’s retrograde journey has forced us to get up close and personal with our own hearts, but now is the time to make a decision. How are we going to apply all that we’ve learned?

Will we keep playing small, feeling sorry for ourselves, making excuses and playing into ego’s vain and purposeless games? Or will we make the hard choices, face our resistance and do the difficult things our very spirits dared to take a chance at existence for?

“Open-hearted we must be, sovereign to ourselves, loving unto ourselves and full of the knowledge that we already have more than enough.”

The Sovereign, Oracle of the Dragonfae Deck

We have been lied to. Again and again we have been told that objects, ideals, status and achievements are more important and valuable than ourselves, our spirits, even our very souls… This has created a sepsis of energy density and decay and we simply must stop the spread of this “wanting/wasting disease.”

We must take back our own personal sense of responsibility. Take back our ability to control our actions and limit our desires. Take back our Divine sovereignty and stop participating in the puppetry of our minds, bodies and emotions.

We must each decide, within our own sovereignty, to become the person we can respect most and then yes, even endeavor to overcome all the challenges of distractions, desires and difficulties that get in the way of becoming that person. Fulfillment arises through development of strength, fostering good habits and contributing our own blessings to the world. This is why no amount of stuff or achievements will ever satisfy – we’re not just here to get, we’re here to give too.

“Feel your own soft majesty. Feel your power, now, and express it through living in integrity. Be responsible, beginning now and incrementally taking the vibratory level up gently each day for your world.”

The Sovereign, Oracle of the Dragonfae Deck

and the Answer

“Discernment empowers you to make choices that are aligned with your spiritual intentions.”

Sound the Fierce Flute, Kuan Yin Oracle Deck
Sound the Fierce Flute, Kuan Yin Oracle Deck

We respond to the call of our highest self with discernment. This doesn’t mean judgement, but rather a gentle awareness.

We can discern that a relationship isn’t right for us because that person’s priorities are different than our own without making a judgement about that person or their priorities. Discernment is about acting authentically, from a place of assurance within our own self-aware truth, whereas judgement is trying to have that type of authority over something external to us.

Judgement is often a power move of the ego, an attempt to protect the feeble “rightness” of our own choices by vilifying those with different motivations or ideas. Discernment however, needs no one to be “wrong,” it’s simply an acknowledgement of what the truth is. When we act in truth, we are organically and naturally empowered.

“If you wish to grow spiritually through love, joy, peace and abundance, then discerning between higher and lower vibrational choices is helpful.”

Sound the Fierce Flute, Kuan Yin Oracle Deck

This is where we begin to have real, potent and powerful effects in our lives. This is what gives us the ability to manifest and quantum jump.

At any given time, there are an infinite number of lives available for us to live. Our choices gradually make some options and opportunities more or less viable and likely to occur. In this way, having discernment allows us to gradually create the supports and foundations that encourage and promote the types of futures that feel most authentic to us, whilst also furthering ourselves from the outcomes our souls do not long to manifest.

“This Oracle has come to you because you are in need of seeing a situation in your life from your heart rather than from appearances.”

Sound the Fierce Flute, Kuan Yin Oracle Deck

NOW is the time for us to be discerning! As this New Moon approaches, how will we be using our new emotional and visionary energy to progress from here? Are we going to take this cosmically charged opportunity to make a conscious and authentic quantum leap into the possibility and potentially of our own unique spirits?

This week, we can make these newly purified, raw and authentic revelations even more powerful and potent. We can feel them in the depths of our hearts and souls without fear! We can all dare to allow our truth to spill forth in all of its vulnerable glory, and present it with humble awe to the majesty and care of the Divine.

“Don’t be afraid to trust your own vision, beloved, it will help you live your truths and take good care of your own Soul.”

Sound the Fierce Flute, Kuan Yin Oracle Deck

May we all embrace our enlightenment a little more this week. May we all step into our sovereign responsibilities with humble discernment, and be blessed with the awesome fulfillment of doing the hard things. Blessed Be!

Up again

at 3am

the witching hour

That time of night

when the air softens

I’m tired but restless

tossing in my bed

decide to surrender

The wind

outside

is blowing hard

The cats crazy

feeling what I do

Chimes relentlessly whip

tree branches smacking

sure sounds wickedly wild

The moon

new born

only just this night

The universe

longs for intention

Sky a deeply pierced black

punctured by starlight

lulling out the magick

Hazy

I feel

the helpless call

Siren of soul

drawing Spirit on

To dance? To sing? To scream?

All and even more

as I’m enchanted whole

It is hard work to carry

all these preparations
to keep track of littles
to be mindful of bigs
to not forget the middle
to make sure the edges fit
yet in grace it all falls together
making the job one of witness
making the effort to release
joy existing to be received
if the credit can be given
and the glory never owned