my heart is a garden

bursting with blooms

shining emerald brilliance


buds, petals and blossoms 

rejoicing in their cool

milky-pink rose quartz glow


fairies and fae folk 

dancing and singing

round an endless fountain 


love abundant, pouring

from the endless depths 

of my eternal soul

I heard a song
Deep in the forest

Like soft whispers
Not all can hear it

Notes held out long
Harmonies chilling

Melody winding
Wrapped all up in it

Trees and flowers
Leaves and the faeries

Bird’s tune, wind’s blow
All joining in it

I danced along
Complete surrender

Bliss filled my heart
Felt myself floating

Gave my control
Let go of knowing

This is true love
Dirty life growing

Far-deep within
Beyond all my sense

I found magick
Remembered power

Gained truth and peace
In these still moments

Sing them again
Forest lullabies

Always the same
Forever different

Sing them again
Forest lullabies

Always the same
Forever different

Dedicated to my beloved global tribe. Thank you all for helping me expand my understanding of love, again and again. You bless me endlessly –

The way you love me

breaks all the rules

friend-zoned by choice 

no expectations, no fools


Holding space for my disasters 

seeing beauty in this monster

you reflect the best of me

and we’re simply happy together


Long conversations, every time

no topic off limits, no judgements

healthy verbal coprocessing

filled with appreciative sentiments


You rekindle my innocence

with the warmth of your smile

unassuming and genuine

never baited or on trial


I’ve heard this was impossible

of course I believe in magick

you’ve given me back my voice

singing forgotten songs back


I want to kiss you all over

like a child kisses their teddy

I want to go on adventures

give you the world if you’d let me


No shame in these pure feelings

no expectations to create taint

the distance between us imagined

only serving to help us appreciate


You are my beloved and I yours

nothing I have ever restricted

as you equally share all you can

together we are truly unlimited


So take my hand my friend

lay your head on my chest

let me stroke your hair a bit

show all how we love best

For those of you that didn’t know, I was married once. He was someone I tried to save from himself, and I lost myself in the process. Still, it’s all been for the best, making me the woman I am.

So, here’s an old poem – from a past I barely recognize:

I fell in love with a con man

He was lying the very day we met


Told me twists and turns of detailed stories, only partial truths or complete bullshit


He’d learned the hard way, of that much there was proof, and so I went along hoping every last word was truth


From behind big blue eyes, he swept me away – what can I say, that con man’s words made me want to play his game


The way he loved me was incredible, made me feel like when he held me he was coming home –


Ecstasy soon turning into a bad trip, a deadly rollar coaster, but I still rode with him –


I fell in love with a criminal, a man who’d done what he thought he had to do, and he’d done it far too many times to realize he could choose –

The lies started to bleed and I began to feed on delirium, insecurity overcoming me making me come unhinged


Something about the way he laughed when he was truly happy, the way his eyes devoured my body and the touch of his hands!


I fell in love with a blue eyed devil, a class act playgirl fantasy

I let him lead me astray, keeping his secrets to this very day, despite his most brazen offenses against me –


I fell in love with a con man, how could I have expected any different?


I couldn’t blame him for his sorted past

Or the hurt little boy who was always staring back


I felt his pain, or at least the parts he wanted me to

I fell in love with a con man, and I always knew –


Yea, somehow I always knew, and I still laid myself bare, daring him to make his move and finally prove that the love he said he for me was as true…


Still, I knew… Still it burned, as his fiery heart consumed – all I had…

Ooh, I was conned by the man I loved – I listened and then got learned…

I thought I knew, thought if I could be bad too he couldn’t hurt me the way that he did…


I gave my innocence to a grand larcenist, ooh I watched as he drank me in and what came back out was stronger, but more putrid too…


Ooh that criminal, I’m that Casanova’s fool –


I learned to love from a con man – he taught me to trust and then how to break it bad…


Don’t you dare

Don’t you entertain –


‘Cause even though I may seem sweet and lovely – I can guarantee that you don’t want to play this game –

I’ve been tainted and mamed 


Ooh oh oh oh – run away