It’s going to be a late night. I have a lot to do before the showcase tomorrow. So, until then –
Got DRAGON nails for the showcase!
Still learning to work with them though! So, this is my attempt to sum up a lot:
It’s been lots of fun! So has getting messages about an ongoing creative project that make me smile (more on this to come SOON):
Super grateful, aaand can’t be bothered by subtle plan changes or other shenanigans.
Showcase is Thursday, I’m starting Kundalini teacher training next week and have my White Tantra workshop this Friday.
I’m looking forward to shifting gears and cruising into fall after this end of harvest BANG!
Oh. And I have plans for you my lovies. Yay!
Hello all! I wanted to officially announce that I have ended my vow of silence early.
In all, it was a great experience and I learned a lot, however for the constraints and complications of trying to continue normal life, it was becoming far to complicated and difficult (for myself yes, but the real problem was my inability to control how it was affecting others).
Here’s some of what I learned through this experiment with communication:
#1 – a lot of what I do for my grandma as her caregiver is be her companion, listen to her stories and keep her company – which is much richer when I contribute as well.
#2 – Much of our verbal response is automatic, like bodily functions, and there’s not much time for thinking before normal reactions. I’ve highly enjoyed becoming aware of this in myself and will be further exploring the relationship between my triggers and reactions.
#3 – the line between language and noise is SUPER THIN! I could communicate so much more than I thought just by using sound and I will definitely be playing with this more too!
Those are just a few things I’ve gleaned, but there are so many more. I also still feel called to silence, but in a more controlled and supportive environment, and will be looking for opportunities to attend a silent retreat in the near future.
Thank you all for your patience during this time! I love and appreciate youuuu ❤
Perhaps you’ve noticed that the website has transformed, once again. If you’ve been a reader for any length of time now, you have seen this happen many times and may be wondering why.
After all, this type of inconsistent online presence behavior goes against every tenet of branding and marketing out there. “Stay consistent,” “focus on being recognizable” and “when people see your branding they should feel assured and comfortable” are not uncommon tips to find around the bloggosphere – but, their not for me.
Optimal Mastery isn’t about trying to make people comfortable. It’s not even about collecting readers or followers. No, Optimal Mastery’s purpose is much more transparent, vulnerable and raw then that.
That’s why the site changes so often, it’s a reflection of myself. I am always changing, transforming and reinventing mayryanna, and so, it feels most authentic when my blog does these somersaults too.
If you’re looking for carefully controlled consistency, meticulously manicured media and steadily streamed standards – LOOK ELSEWHERE! Optimal Mastery won’t ever settle.
I have not been utilizing spoken language to communicate for 10 days now and I’m officially a third of the way through my vow. I have been learning a lot and figured this was as good a time as any to post a bit of an update.
Interestingly, my abilities to continue making noises and write to communicate have made my vow more difficult rather than less. I have found myself struggling to “grunt just right” or write something as quickly or “efficiently” as possible again and again. The trouble always arises because this vow doesn’t only affect me, and I still have habits of adjusting myself for others.
I am not at an ashram, I’m still finding ways to do my work and have my relationships, yet I feel profoundly limited in my ability to give people what they want. In this way, I am being tested, but so is everyone else in my life. I am being confronted by my desire to make things easier for everyone, literally ALL THE TIME. In turn, they are also being invited to explore their expectations of me, and it’s not always comfortable or even understandable.
I have thoroughly succeeded in rocking the boat lately. I have been tempted to just call this “rewilding my voice” intention off on more than one occasion, but all this resistance can only mean it’s worth the effort – so I’m pushing through, and taking everyone on a growth adventure with me!
I am however, hereby changing my “I can makeep noises” rule slightly, to exclude word-like sounds. Only official grunts, growls and purrs from now on. Okay, and maybe some monkey chatter and bird whistles – but no more human-esk attempts a communication. Though who is to say where the line is unless I explore it??
Alas, I am again committed to the original commitment… But you see my difficulty?